重来

应该有好一段日子没认真地写东西了, 无他, 不愉快的事情的确让我透不过气来.
所以离开上一段日记的时间比较长了一点点. 原因...我答应自己下一篇肯定要是带着非常愉快的心情,同时间,一定要有好进展,说的是..心情, 心理的不平衡, 一些私人问题等等. 很多时候其实恨不得要来这发牢骚, 但就是好好的控制一下,不想把负面的都往这边塞... 平时脑袋总是浮现太多太多想表达的东西, 有太多太多的感受, 感想...想赤裸裸地发泄在这儿.... 现在脑袋一片空白, 我想吧,应该随身携带日记簿,那应该会有一番作为....让我可以很随心,随地涂写一番.

嗯, 重来是否容易? 我会再经历什么样的事情让我可以重拾自信, 好累好累... 我要回到原来的我, 祈求上天不要再玩弄我, 给个机会我重来,好吗?

Random

- It's the end -

Random

- and so, I've made up my mind -

Random

- I pray hard my prayers can be answered -

自言自语

天是灰色的　雨是透明的

心是灰色的　我是透明的

愛是盲目的　恋是瘋狂的
痴是可悲的　我是绝对的
你是自由的　我是附屬的
她是永远的　我是错误的
梦是美好的　你是残酷的
我是灰色的　我是透明的

love listening to this song, one of my fav song..for years...
same old feeling driving me mad
I foresee a long healing period… long… long

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way
If you are not mine then why does your heart my calls
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I don’t know what the future brings, but i know your here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope you are the one i share my life with

I don’t wanna run away but i can’t take it i don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that i can stay in your arms

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head
If you’re not for me then why does this distance name my life
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife
I don’t know why you’re so far away but i know this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope you are the one I share my life with
And i wish that you could be the one I die with
And i pray that you’re the one I build my home with I hope i love you all my life

Cause I miss you body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and i pray for the strength to stand today
Cause i love you whether it’s wrong or right and though I can’t be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

8月15

中秋节快乐

好想提灯笼...

Brand new day

with blue sky...
don't be sad...it's just the new beginning of your life

Hello Rainbow

I shoulda known to walk away and disappeared without a trace
but instead I stood there waiting, hoping you would come around
but you always found a way to let me down

I just don't want to waste another day, nothings will never be the same
you make me sick, I need to walk away
after all the things I've done for you, you never tried to do the same
it's like you always play the victim
and I'm the one you always blame
I'm sick of feeling down
I can’t erase and I can't keep this inside
so I guess it's time for me to say goodbye

looking for rainbow, find out for certain
love is gonna be there for me

Long gone and Moved on - The Script

I still don’t know how to act
Don’t know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you’re long gone and moved on
Cause you’re long gone
But I still don’t know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you’re long gone and moved on

Random

wake up to another dreadful morning... pick myself up to work

all that I can see and feel is the lost... the problem... tha pain
my life is just too occupied by my sadness... its too sad to live in the fear
I pray for recovery

幸福

无聊, 所以随手抽了张照片就改了改...

什么都不懂, 也没有所谓的艺术细胞... 就改到我觉得喜欢或满意或合我心意就吧...

没什么特别意思

只是很向往

幸福

I will follow you...

... and the day will come when you say

you belong to me

Messi

-Balik Pulau-

07.09.2010

don’t come to me with your mess

I can see it from a mile away

寂寞寂寞就好

超喜欢它的歌词, 完全符合我现在心里想要说的话

还是原来那个我
不过流掉几公升泪 所以变瘦
对着镜子我承诺 迟早我会换这张脸应对笑容
不算什么 爱错就爱错 早点认错 早一点解脱

我寂寞寂寞就好 这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到 受不了伤到 快疯掉
死不了 就还好

我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到 忘不了 赖着 不放掉
人本来就寂寞的 借来的 都该还掉
我总会把你戒掉

还是原来那个你
是我自己做梦你又改变什么
再多的爱也没用 每个人有每个人的业障因果
会有什么 什么都没有
早点看破 才看的见以后

我寂寞寂寞就好 这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到 受不了 伤到 快疯掉
死不了 就还好

我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到 忘不了 赖着 不放掉
人本来就寂寞的 我总会把你戒掉

上.下.左.右.

上个周末要xjun给我拍了一缉照片, 效果还真的不错噎...满意

很开心, 因为看到照片里那个可以开怀大笑的自己...

突然发现, 原来我真的可以把自己的情绪掩饰得很好

当天早上, 其实状况并不是太好, 头很疼, 睡眠不足...心情更是陷入最低谷

外头正好下着雨, 赶紧发了短讯给xjun说: [下雨啊]

我其实是想说, [不如改期吧!]

不停地为自己找尽借口...一点都不想去拍...

xjun说过 [我喜欢你的笑容, 要拍你笑得很开心的]

一想到这, 我就开始皱眉头...头更疼

我笑得出来吗? 我都快要崩溃了, 到那里找笑容给你啦?

没一会儿, xjun的短讯就来啦... [雨停了.]

昏, 没借口不去了... 只好乖乖做准备...

整个过程挺好玩的, 毕竟没有尝试过在人多的地方这样摄...摄...摄...

心情慢慢好转... 培养培养情绪...既然来了...就拍好它吧...

姿势方面有待改进...要努力学习

以下是几张我还蛮喜欢的

Random

-Life is sucks-

Carousel

We go around and round like a carousel
Break up to make up
Love you then I hate you well
Can’t get off this carousel

Clown

somebody that brings out the laughter...joys...happiness to others

made me smile... forget the unhappiness

for a moment

I wish

someday

I could be the one

有梦想吗...

-一直都很喜欢的旋转木马-

你有梦想吗?

我跟你说, 你要是没有梦想你连猪都不如!

因为猪猪都有梦想, 你可以没有吗?

猪猪有着三个梦想...呵呵

1. 食物从天上掉下来

2. 所有围墙都倒塌了

3. 所有人信奉回教了

我的梦想, 不是住洋楼、养番狗
我梦想每一分, 每一秒都活得快乐

这算是梦想吗? 对我而言, 是...

看似很简单对吧...然而是最艰难的...

后来的后来...

太多太多的故事, 太多太多的经历

才发现...它离我越来越远

再也不敢奢望...

我只祈祷, 我脆弱的心灵不再受到伤害

人只要有梦想就是最大的快乐

不是吗?

Reason, Season, Lifetime

Thank you for being a part of my life

whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime

-by Brian Andrew-

Thought...

... cannot be trusted... seriously...

from what

I've seen

I've heard

I've been gone through

nothing left for now

this time

For you...

Happy Birthday... happy birthday

>.<

the more candles the bigger the wish

have fun, cherrrsss~~~

Betty Suarez

She said" I've always loved the way Betty handled herself: As a strong, fierce, self-assured and self-confident woman who wouldn't let anyone stand in her way or get her down. It didn't matter that she wasn't as stick-thin or "beautiful" as the people in the fashion world that she covered at fictional magazine Mode. She did things her way. Always."

Trying hard again...

"Cheer up... the worst is yet to come
your success and happiness lies in you!"
I wish
whenever I pray, God is here to listen to me
may blessings descend upon me

^_^

- Tomorrow will be a better day -

Pairs II

stay together...

Ahhhhhhhh~~~~

nice shot!!
thank you hoong hoong
it had became my wallpaper now :)

Unknown

It's the unknown, the don't know
That keeps me hanging on and on
It's so unclear...
I walk within the endless days

雨过天晴?

雨过就是天晴吗?
那我想
我心深底处的那场雨
是持续的, 是漫长的...
看不见天晴
天晴以后的故事离我太遥远
哪天
我渴望看见雨后最美的彩虹

Doesn't Matter

potato or ugly duckling?
right or wrong
it doesn't matter anymore

Wonderful

everyday is a special and wonderful day
smile more often
make each day a beautiful day

Peaceful day

great espresso + comfort = happy
I'm Lovin' it
Hatyai
6 & 7 March

ฉัน รัก มัน

Thankful

Be grateful to people who came into my life and makes me happy
I believe that
it will attracts more good things and blessing in my life
Be thankful for what I have now and
everything that happens to me
knowing that
every step forward is a step toward achieving
something bigger and better

Dreams

when we were young
we were dreamers
we had so many dreams
about everything
happy endings
Moments pass, and time moves on
but
dreams remain

WYSIWWG

Not clothes, not shoes, not accessories
haha
what you see is what we get
from Hatyai!!
is daily necessities -_-"" !!
well their selling price is much more cheaper than us
we will buying madly if we have carry a big luggage

领悟

== 知足才会幸福 ==
你学会了吗?

旧爱就象过期的剩菜

请珍惜你现在所拥有的
--多么希望你看得懂--

女王的文章

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/illyqueen/13159283

Smile

Just a note to motivate myself
You are unique
No one will ever have your eyes, you voice
your personality
or
your smile
No one will ever be as beautiful
as YOU!
Smile!!

我真的受伤了

您, 是否体验过
你生命中最重要的人
每每都选择不伤害他人...
然而却选择伤害你..
您, 能够明白
那无法用言语形容的感受吗?
这种刺痛
是无法痊愈的

--一直都很喜欢这首歌--
歌词帮我说话了

有希望是幸福的

《锦衣卫》

看完这部电影, 那句让我回味很久的就是
"有希望是幸福的。每个人都有权选择自己的路，路只要走下去、一定会海阔天空"
是的, 活着就应该有希望
希望不一定是幸福的
即使再渺茫
有希望总比没希望好
我希望我们的回忆是幸福的
我不晓得
接下来的路, 是否会海阔天空
至少我希望是幸福的

我的新部落 - My new blog

决定给自己在注册新的一个部落
喜欢手写, 但没有用心的为自己找一本美丽日记部
我也相信如果手写, 我的日记很快就会不了了之 :)
所以在这边弄一个新的
这一个将会是我的日记部落
记载我每天做的事物, 见的人物..等等...
哈哈, 人开始有年纪, 记忆开始衰退...
这个部落应该可以让我以后的日子里回顾
我的一切一切
每一天所发生的都是特殊的...
相信在人生中也不会再重演, 即使有, 也不过那么的几次吧...
希望我接下来的每一天是美丽的
新部落就给她取为
"雁的美丽日记"
-因为不幸运, 只好多爱我自己-
maomaobaobei.blogspot.com
诞生了:)

2/26

这些日子
心里总是忐忑不安
有些事, 不知道或许是最好的选择
但如果有选择的话
我选择很清醒地知道每一个事实
至少赦掉我的不安
至少我可以决定怎么去面对
猜疑一点都不好受
每一天
强迫自己不去想, 不去问
为的只是希望自己可以再坚强一次
事实是怎样?
我没有过得比较好....
我努力着
但我更明白, 我是怎样地欺骗自己

2010, 我的勇事

2010...第一件勇事, 快要拥有自己的那么一个房子

第二件呢, 我终于变钢牙妹!!
医生挑了好日子, 正月初九噎
一切一切一定会好起来

恶心吗? 漂亮得很呢
你们说: 自讨苦吃
我就说: 肯定值得
其实我绑牙不是为了爱美耶
这可是关系到面相
她说, 整了牙会为我带来好运
引来的至少也是好事物, 好人物...
那倒无妨一试
反正就可以美一世人 :)
的确是很疼, 还要牺牲美食呢
这个无所谓, 当是节食的一个好方法
你们都说绑着牙很丑, 我到觉得很帅气...
很美不是吗?
你们就没有那个" 勇"挂在心头上
我可是
敢敢来, 勇勇去 (福建话, 赞!)

CNY on Friday

taken by Xiao Peng

Tomorrow is not promised...

感谢上天
让我在这一秒, 这一刻
还有机会大力大力地呼吸着
感受到一切

我不晓得, 下一秒的事将会是怎样
我想告诉那些我曾经爱过的人
我没有后悔爱过你们
我努力的付出, 努力地爱着你们
天晓得, 明天醒来
我是否还有机会
对着你们说"我爱你"
或是向你们告别

感谢那些伤害过我的人
因为你们
我变得勇敢, 坚强

今日不知明日事...
请你们好好的爱惜着, 怜惜着
每一个对你好的人...

Law of Attraction

Again, I always believe on this... Law of Attraction... which I used to share with friends... and motivated them.. too bad but not for myself... :S

"The law of attraction hypnosis procedure should help a person control what thoughts they are sending out to the universe. This will help ensure that more positive elements come to them than negative ones. This will mean that instead of the person always thinking and worrying about how bad they feel, they will finally be able to focus on how positive and energized they feel. If they believe this to be true, it will become so because they will draw that truth to them and make it a part of themselves.

There are four primary steps in the law of attraction hypnosis. First you must know exactly what you want. You have to be very clear and concise (think of it as a contract with no loopholes). Second, you have to send those thoughts out into the universe on a regular basis. Depending on what you are looking to change in your life this could be a daily affirmation type thing, or it may need to be a mantra which you repeat frequently over the course of the day.

Third, you must begin to behave and believe that this element is already yours- you already have the great job, the wonderful family, a beautiful home, etc. This is very similar to the visualizing technique used by most famous athletes. They imagine themselves winning the game, the meet, the match...and they do.

Finally, you have to be open to receiving your request in whatever form it comes. You may wake up and realize that you don't actually want or need that beautiful home across town because the home you're currently in meets all of your needs and provides you with the safety and security you desire. You have to remember that sometimes what you think you want has been there all along. The law of attraction hypnosis will help you to see your world in a new, more positive light, but you must be receptive and you must be willing to let go of preconceived notions."

2/22

吃得越多, 越是消瘦
碰上久违的朋友
总是对我羡慕不已
你们可否知道
背后所付出的
是什么样的代价...
什么样的牺牲?

2/20

我只不过是一个'疯颠'的女人...
我别无选择
既
没有控制权...
如果可以重来
我希望我不曾遇见你
对我, 至少不会留下痕迹
也没有回忆

又一次, 想起这首歌

2/18

不懂说什么好, 每天都有惊无喜...
也不懂应该跟谁说...
就在这边随便说说...
"我不开心, 有人听见我吗?!!"

第几个一百天

年初三, 开工大吉
今年尚算幸运, 有两天假期, 感觉好安慰
可以陪同家人, 见见亲戚, 探望朋友...

真的好希望新的一年, 好运随着来..
今天我的 烦恼, 忧虑一罗罗开始涌着来...
尽我能力, 往正面想, 相信一切都是美好的...
all things bright and beautiful :)

很开心有它
'第几个一百天'
连续播了几天的一首新歌, 听了又听...
有他帮我舒解压力...
一直都很欣赏, 很喜欢的一位才子 - 林俊杰
对他所有的歌曲更是爱不释手

年初一 + 情人节

情人节落在年初一
对单身的人来说, 是一种安慰吧...
那落空的感觉得以让新年的气氛给祢补上...

四年了, 都没庆祝过情人节...
我的情人节嘛, 永远都是那么坎坷...
有无情人我都一样落空, 每一年都酸溜溜的...
可还是不做声地哽下肚里去...

新年快乐
希望新年足以填补我心灵上的空虚...
转移少许的注意力吧...

去年的今天

去年的今天, 农历三十
我想回到去年的今天...
有着他的惦念, 一点也不孤独
有着他的牵挂, 一点也不寂寞

现在感觉一阵空虚...落寞
何以让我找到一个精神归宿

昔日的记忆只能回味
现在的他是否和我一样
一样的挂念着对方

新年快乐

新的一年, 希望真的可以扭转乾坤...

不愉快的事接二连三上门来拜访我...

朋友说, 往好的一面想, 凡发生的都是好事

正面的事自然会被吸引过来...

希望如此

新年其间, 有朋自远方来

小彭说

见到面彼此来个拥抱吧

让肩膀上的累累一抱而空

小彭, 希望你的拥抱奏效啦...

让我那衰衰鬼运气滚得远一点!!